Though short stories are one of my favorite things to write, with the aspect of control over the a life I could never live, or already have. It gives me time to write out and evaluate situations I'm going through or have been through. Pretty much it's a complete escape into another world that allows me to explore options and freedom of stress.
But sometimes you can't escape your issues through a story or play out all the different scenarios in writing. You can't write a new path and pretend everything is okay when it isn't. When times like that come around, when creating a new story isn't an option... that's the time for the truth to come pouring out through paper and pen. That's when poetry becomes my only language.
Poetry is a productive and healthy way to face all my problems head on without drowning in the fear of them. I cannot express how many times poetry has saved me, quite literally.
Whether to express my darkest feelings, or try to get down in words the love I feel towards someone, it always helps shed some life on the subject. My conscious and heart finally agree to work together and get done the truth that's within me.
When I'm done I can reread to see how I feel about the situation. Or even at times I can reread it and see how much I'm over reacting. It's incredible how reading thoughts like that helps you see how the anger or fear or depression blinds you from reality. By just doing that you can save yourself a world of unneeded pain or anger.
This is one of my favorite pieces that I've written:
Here's to the broken hearted
The carelessly discarded
Here's to the blood shot eyes
The disregarded cries
Fighting the dark
Like a dying lighter spark
Bite your tongue until it bleeds
Because your words are what plant the seeds
Of doubt inside your mind
Lost but no one wants to find
The broken soul you have become
Cut and smoke, now perminately numb
A blinded future with a haunted past
How long can this high last?
How can you kill the enemy without suicide?
I'll stop. It's over. I'm fine. I lied.
Move on as if I was never here
For I never was, my faithless dear
Poetry was never my strong suit so props to you Jamie! :) Have you ever thought of becoming a songwriter? Your work especially the one above has potential to be a great song with ACTUAL lyrics. Also, if you ever have some downtime you should check out Charles Bukowski's work. In my opinion, he's one of the best writers of all time. He has poetry that dates all the way back from the 1960's to the 2000's. In other words...you have a lot to choose from! :)
ReplyDeleteYou're poetry really gives strong emotion that people can relate to. In my opinion, that's the most important thing about poetry. I think we've talked about this in the past, but if you ever want to turn one of your poems into a song I'd be happy to produce it :)
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